Where to start. As some of you are aware I've had a bit of a horrendous year as Head Gardener with my gardening assistant and all the discplinaries he had right up to his last warning, with me having to report to them about everything he did or did not do. They still kept him on.
We only work Monday, Wednesday and Friday. He got himself on to a course which is every Friday, yes one of the three working days. It has nothing to do with the company and he went ahead and did it without there say so. My boss made a fuss to me saying that he wouldn't let him have an extra day elsewhere blah blah blah. Now he has given him an extra day on a Thursday.
Well with this and other staff doing such outrageous things from swearing and screaming at the boss and punching in doors, to thieving. My company has got me down, and I am not alone in feeling that way. Morale is low. I haven't attended work as much as I should have and now I have had a warning. Not verbally, of course, but by email. Not just about the days missed but that the High Standards have not been kept up like years past.
So all the hard work I have done over the past 4 years has totally been missed. I kind of guessed that something would be said about my not being in, I have grown ever increasingly miserable about having to go in and dreading it. But to say that my work isn't up to standard is just one more thing just too unbearable to take. I have finally decided that enough is enough. "About time too" my partner said to me.
The sad fact is it that I will not be able to get another gardening job, not in the near future anyway as I have little in the way of qualifications is this field and there is sweet fanny adams out there in that line of work. At this moment in time I'd be happy to be a cleaner, I'd get paid more for a start. £6.50 per hour isn't exactly a Head Gardener's wage. The fact that there are now only two of us instead of five gardeners seems to have gone by the wayside too. We're supposed to keep up all the standards.
I feel sad, I feel upset and I feel angry. But to be honest I think it really is time for me to go. The job was beginning to turn stale anyway and the morale is at an all time low not just in gardening but all over the Club. Things can only get worse and so its a good time to go.
I would like to think I can get a higher paid job and perhaps get myself on a course whilst waiting for the next dream job. Right now any job will do as where I am has kicked me in the teeth once too many times. If I don't leave they'll try to sack me or make my life a misery.
Soon to no longer be a Head Gardener. Tina